Chocolate Milk!

Fake My Glances

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 22:40:00 -0500

Two Sentence Summary: I’ve put up a new layout, which is one of the only really important things I’ve accomplished this week, seeing as I’m on vacation. Life is being… usual, but I’ve got some new ideas/plans/news for the site I’m excied to share. Questions: I want to start taking requests, doing reviews, opening a webstore, and hosting people. Would anyone be interested in any of this?

New layout. I love it. It’s funny, I hadn’t expected to use this picture as a layout, I was just playing around with it, but I just fell in love with the editing I did. I loved the Demi layout, but by the time I had put it up I’d had it done for weeks, and I was just getting sick of the drabness of it. This layout is fresh and exciting and I just love it to pieces. I’m kind of sad, I had two other headers in the works for the site, but when I made this one, I just had to use it. But rest assured, there WILL be a Vesper’s Goobye themed layout. I mean, there HAS to be… Anyways, back to this layout. When coding it, I took some pointers from Tiff@Aesthetic Intoxication’s 10 Ways to Improve Your Site and made all of my fonts a little bit larger. The quote in the header is from the song “If You Could Be Anywhere” by Tom Felton. Yes, Tom Felton, the actor that plays Draco Malfoy. I was really surprised when I learned he could sing, but this song is absolutely amazing, and the quote fit the header nicely. Curious? Turn up the tunes.

As far as my life goes, I haven’t been up to much. We’ve had February break this past week, so no school at all, which has been great. I got a haircut, and a new cell phone. It’s a Samsung T349, and his name is Sven Garbowsky (obviously after Garbo). I love it, because it lets me access my e-mail, so I always know what’s going on. Other than that, I’ve been shopping quite a bit lately, buying new shoes, new crap I don’t need, it’s all very fun. I got my dress for our Sadie Hawkin’s Dance, though now it looks like I might not be going. I want to, but Liz isn’t sure, I don’t think Heather is going, and Cen… well, she’ll probably spend the entire night with Broderick, leaving me completely alone. And if there’s one thing I hate, it’s being alone. I don’t know why, I’ve just got this phobia of being left completely and totally alone in a public setting. So, unless I can find some sort of a date, it looks like I probably won’t be going, which ~~kind of sucks~~ really depresses me a little bit. But that’s life, I guess.

I’ve decided to stop posting useless videos and such in my blogs. They actually kind of annoy me. Unless there is something I really feel the need to post, everything else is going to go in a link box at the bottom of my posts from now on. It’ll keep things more organized, and it’ll keep me a little bit more sane. I’m going to be re-coding all of my layouts pretty soon, I think, because they need to be re-coded. Desperately. I’m also going to venture into the horrible world of PROFILE 2.0. I’m definitely not a fan of 2.0, but I think it’s about time I tackled the monster. I’ve also got the idea of taking requests again. I need something to keep me busy nowadays. I’d take sign requests, maybe even DIV requests. Or maybe I’ll open up a webstore, and sell my products. (Don’t worry, they’d be CHEAP.) Just to make a few bucks here and there. I’d also like to start getting reviewed/doing reviews. I think it’d give me good exposure to what the rest of the internet world was doing, and it’d keep me busy. Sounds fun to me. As a final note, I’m now teaching a MySpace DIV Overlay workshop at an online school called Lakeworth. I’m going under the alias of “Ronnie Jones” but don’t worry, it’s me. If you’re interested, you should go check it out here.

Link Box

Justa Quickie

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 20:42:00 -0500

So, as you can probably tell, I’ve been working on the site quite a bit lately. I’ve added three brand new website templates, a new DIV, and I just re-did the website’s layout. I had actually made this layout for a website template, then I got it coded and realized I loved it far too much to not use it for my own selfish reasons. In installing this layout, I’ve also taken some steps into validating my HTML and CSS. Yes, I know what your thinking… HTML? I’m just too lazy to switch over to XHTML at the moment, and HTML does what it needs to do, so I’m going to stick with that. If you run the site through a validator, at the moment, it looks atrocious, because Fanupdate, my CBOX, and Twitter all run on XHTML, but everything I have coded myself seems to be pretty valid. (Except the marquee… It doesn’t like me.) My CSS is, I am proud to say, 99.9% valid and gorgeously arranged. (The .1% error comes from a “_left:;” code I had to use to get the layout oriented right in IE. Because IE also hates me.)

In other news, life has been… typical. School has sucked, though I got through my midterms without a hitch, my lowest score was a 90 in Algebra 2. I’ve made the resolution to do 97% of my math homework this semester, so I can bring up my math grade, I’ve let it slip like crazy, and I’m really disappointed in it. I really haven’t done much in the way of social interaction lately. Everyone seems wrapped up in other things and other people, so I’ve kind of been… not lonely, persay. I’ve just found myself with a lot of extra time on my hands. Which has been great for you, my lovely site viewers, for it has left me with plenty of creativeness and ideas with which to create lovely new content for you. I am seriously brimming with ideas, there are so many things I want to get done! But I’ve got quite a bit going on before I can implement too many of these ideas. School, Sadie’s, plans for February break, it’s all getting kind of hectic. However, rest assured, I’ve got big plans.

On another completely unrelated topic, it’s on. Next week, I am to abstain completely from listening to the Jonas Brothers’ voices. Watch me fail. (:

Song O’The Moment

UPDATE: Cen lost the bet. In less than 48 hours.

Wowzah...

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Sat, 16 Jan 2010 21:58:00 -0500

I guess, first off, you can probably tell there have been some updates to the site. I came back from my long, unintended, laptop induced hiatus with a mind full of ideas. I’ve got some new backgrounds I’m working on, with crazy patterns and loops and whoozie-whatzits, as well as some desktop backgrounds I plan on unveiling sometime soon here. I put up a new website template which can be seen over at the templates page. This new layout, I must admit, isn’t the best I’ve ever done, but the old one was getting well… old. And, it’s not perfect, but I’ve discovered I’m actually quite enamored with imperfection, and I adore the layout. Plus, this happens to be one of those rare layouts I give names to, and this one just happens to be Break All The Madness.

“I wanna break all the madness, but it’s all I have.”—Who I Am by Nick Jonas & The Administration.

This line from “Who I Am” seems to define my point of view on life. Lately things have been hectic… No, that’s a lie, things have always been hectic. I get picked up, put down, tossed around and flushed down the toilet more often than any person ever should. But it’s this craziness, this madness, that has made me who I am. And, most recently, I’ve learned a lot. I found out recently that one of my best friends is moving the end of the summer, and I found out that some of the people I happen to regard with the highest level of admiration are excruciatingly fake and find me excruciatingly annoying. These first sixteen days of the new year have seen me in tears more than they care to. But… I’ve also realized more in these first sixteen days than I did in 2009 collectively. I’ve learned that the best, and really only, thing you can do with your life is treasure the time you have with people, make memories, and when it’s gone, look back on what you’ve done, all the good things, rather than the bad things. I’ve also learned that some things are worth crying over, and others aren’t. So people don’t like me… I’ll move on. I didn’t have tickets to see Nick Jonas this week… I cried like a baby. I’ve realized that things go wrong, people happen to suck, but at the end of the day, all that matters is the moment you’re in.

“People change and promises are broken, clouds will move and skies will be wide open.”—Take a Breath by the Jonas Brothers.

“I am enjoying my life at this moment, which is all any conscious entity can really hope to do.”—The virtual Tom Riddle.

I’ve also learned quite a bit about myself recently. I’m an incredibly insecure person. I can be lazy, and I can be psychotic. I’m, mentally, a complete and total mess sometimes. I’m a horrible masochist. I cling on to things way harder than I should, and none of these things ever seem to make sense. I happen to be hopelessly infatuated with being infatuated… I love to love people, love them to the point where it hurts. (There’s the masochist in me again.) In fact, the more your hurt me, the more I’ll probably love you… It’s just the way I work. I also love to make people happy, and I’d be there for anyone, no matter how much I hated them, if they really needed me. I’m also not the kind of person who can be fake about how I feel. It’s physically impossible for me to appear in a good mood when I’m not… Trying to makes me sick. I’m also not about to change for anyone. Ever.(Not even Nick Jonas… Okay, that’s a lie.) And, most importantly, I love the people in my life more than they could ever know, even when they happen to suck, or be moody, or when they think I’m annoying, because these people have helped me become who I am right now, helped me find myself, and I don’t know where I’d be without them.

If I Could Turn Back Time...

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 19:56:29 -0500

It’s really hard when you sit back and think about how much things have changed in the past year. It’s even harder when you sit back and think about how much things have changed in the past ten years. I find it hard to think that ten years ago I was an innocent little first grader, more concerned with the Pokémon movie than anything else. Five years ago, I was a crazy little fifth grader, wanting nothing more than to fit in with the people I knew, even though I knew I really never would. And now… I’m not entirely sure how I’d describe myself nowadays.

The first half of the decade really plays no part in who I am right now. I mean, sure, I moved to Florida then back, lost a family member, and gained a little sister. But as a whole, things that occurred between 2000 and 2005 really don’t seem to have had much of an impact on me. But from about November 2005, my life started rearranging itself in weird ways, and every single day I’ve lived since then has affected who I am right now in one way or another. What happened in November 2005? I discovered Daniel Radcliffe. And, as crazy as that sounds, that’s where my road to myself began.

Now, that’s not the only thing. Alot has happened in the past five years that have shaped me into the girl I am right now. My life has been like a rollercoaster these past five years, with ups, downs, and more loops than I thought I could ever handle. I’ve been homeless, living in a hotel for almost a week. I’ve had my entire world ripped away from me twice. I’ve been so low that I almost lost myself, and I’ve seriously questioned why on Earth I even breathe. I’ve been heartbroken, and I’ve been mentally broken. I’ve been lower than low. Yet, at the same time, wonderful things have happened, and I’ve met amazing people who, whether they know it or not, have saved my life more times than they can count. I’ve lived, I’ve loved, and I’ve grown up.

I’ve probably changed the most this year. I’ve grown to embrace my craziness and my weirdness like I never was able to before. I’ve realized my drive for doing well in school. And I’ve grown closer to people who have completely changed my outlook on life. I’ve matured, and learned that I need to speak what’s really on my mind. I’ve come to care for people in new, odd ways, and I feel like I can finally be myself, and I’m loving almost every single day. It’s taken alot of heartache, alot of mental anguish, and alot of tears, but I really feel like I’m at a point in my life where things are just going to start looking up. I’m seeing the world differently, I’m seeing myself differently, and it shows. I’ve given up on trying to keep my past held together, because it’s just not worth it, and I fully intend to live each day as it happens, dwelling less on what could happen and more on what is happening right now.

I have people to thank, however, for getting me to this point. I owe myself, as I am right now, to the following people (this is in the order I met them): Kate Allen (For teaching me that being different is actually amazing, as is Harry Potter, and both of them combined make an amazing person.), Mychaela Lunney (For being there when I needed you all those years ago, even when I was so far away.), Wesley Ballinger (Please listen to “Fighter” by Christina Aguliera.), Celine Vasquez (For helping me get out of the ditch I was left in after seventh grade.), Tyler Jones (For being there for me when I felt so abandoned, so alone. I wouldn’t be here today if you hadn’t been there for me when I moved.), Cendana Auger (For becoming my first friend here, and one of my best friends, who I can talk to about everything and anything.), Liz Amelotte (For teaching me it’s alright to be a little crazy, as well as many other things that you know about.), and, finally, my Funk Soul Brotha (just to annoy you), for being that little voice of reason in my head this year.

And, after much thinking, my song of the decade:

It's 3 AM... Kyrie Who?

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 03:18:00 -0500

Yuppp. It’s currently 3 AM and I’m sitting here, listening to music and lost in thought. It started out innocently enough, I was just on YouTube looking for music, and then I came across “Sexy Love” by Ne-Yo. And then I was thrust headfirst into memory lane. Pascal started a group on Facebook that encourages people to say what they mean, and I did, but then realized my thought was a little too important and a little too long to just be put in a Facebook status.

When I hear “Sexy Love”, for some reason, I see the intersection of College and Blanding, in Orange Park Florida. It’s gotta be about midday, and there is a big Ashley Furniature truck going down Blanding. And with this memory, a bunch of others came with it. School, my friends, the places and everything that is associated with them. Or was. I remember that godly house they were building. And how I always hated the light afternoon, because it was so dang orange. I remember going to the new WalMart in Middleburg and sliding around on the giant tiles. I remember being the Alpha Tiger, and I remember listening to “With You” by Chris Brown leaving the mall once. I remember the smells, and how everything really seemed so perfect. The more old music I listened to, the more I uncovered. Yet the weirder it felt.

It didn’t really feel weird because I miss it. I mean, of course there are elements of my past I miss, but for the most part I’m pretty happy here. I felt weird because the memories didn’t feel like they belong to me, they didn’t feel like they should. It almost felt like I was intruding on someone else’s memories… It’s weird. I guess it’s a bit early for my “reflecting back” blog, normally I save that for the end of the year, but I just really need to get this off my chest. It’s hard to believe it’s only been two years since I moved here. It’s even harder to believe I moved down there three years ago. It seems like it was so much longer, like it was a whole other lifetime ago. Even last year seems like it was so far away, I just feel so different. I can honestly say I’ve never really felt this way before. Three years ago, today, I was more than likely sitting on my bed in my room, freaking out at Monica for watching TV, and daydreaming about how amazing Wesley was. (Ha ha, I know.) Two years ago, I was sitting on my bed, dreading the upcoming holiday season, thinking of how I can get my little site up off it’s feet, and missing, yes you guessed it, Wesley. This time last year, I was in the other apartment, probably either working on the site or laying on my bed doing nothing, day dreaming of either Nick Jonas or, well, you know. Mr. Toast.

And, tonight, I’m sitting here, wondering how I got here. I’ve changed so much, I think I’ve kind of lost myself. I mean, I’m really happy, but I don’t really know who I am anymore. I’ve always known who I am, but as I’m looking back on who I was, I’ve realized I’ve changed beyond all recognition. Not physically, but as a person. I’ve grown, I’ve learned more, and I’ve adapted to the situation, and as a result, I don’t recognize myself at all. I mean, seriously. When did I honestly start liking the Jonas Brothers? Weren’t they gay three years ago or something? Weren’t they those annoying kids who re-did the Jake Long themesong and made it suck?? And when did I start hanging out with girls? Really? I can never really think of a time that I was closer to girls than I was to guys until I moved here. What happened?. Since when do I wear v-neck shirts and American Eagle? Wasn’t American Eagle for fags?!? And, honestly, since when do I sing?!? I NEVER EVER EVER SANG! I was terrified of singing, singing was BAD. If you caught me singing I’d prollably die.

So, what happened?? Don’t worry, I’m not really looking for an answer, because I can’t even really answer that for myself. It’s just confusing. I honestly feel like I symbolically died or something. I remember when I first moved here, I had a small MP3 Player. When we started packing it started dying, the screen started fading. By the time we moved here the headphone jack had blown and I had to jerry-rig it to make it work. By the time I got settled and really made friends, and put some Jonas Brothers on it, it failed to work entirely. I… It’s a rather eerie mark of a transtition, isn’t it? But it makes far too much sense. After it died, I used CD’s for a while, and then I bought Nick, and he and I have been inseparable ever since. And I really haven’t changed too much since then. It’s kinda funny, because when I moved across town, and I was all messed up then, Nick started acting funny. He actually died for about a day, but then he miraculously got fixed and he hasn’t ever acted up since. I’m not saying my MP3 players are psychic, I just think it’s rather coincidental.

I just don’t know. I kind of feel a little lost. Not sad, not in any way unhappy, but I kind of feel like I don’t know who I’ve become. I guess I’ve got to take some time and figure myself out.

As a side note, today we held a surprise birthday party for Brody at Pascal’s house. It was pretty spantastic. I made the cake, and I personally thought it was a fail cake, but people seemed to enjoy it, so I guess it’s all good.

One Big Sugar Rush

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 09:00:00 -0500

I hate not blogging, but as of lately, I don’t have much to blog about. School has been… dull, the few days I’ve been there. I was out for a week on “personal” reasons, and I did absolutely NOTHING then, which rather saddens me. And now school’s out for Thanksgiving Break, for a whole week, and I have a feeling I’m going to end up doing NOTHING again. I think for once in my life, it’s been kind of boring.

I mean, there have been highlights, but not many, to be completely honest. Last week, when I was out, I updated the site, as you can very well see. Kevin’s layout just wasn’t working for me, and I wanted to put a little bit more of myself into the layout. So, I started playing around with what I thought was cute and KABLAM! you get this. It’s simple and not too cluttered, adorable, and semi-unique. It’s what I wanted the website to look like, not one of those layouts I’ve been crappily throwing together lately. It’s more “me” then the other layouts have been, and I adore it. Not to mention the boys just look absolutely adorable, don’t they? I’ve been trying to make some things that reflect me a little bit more, because… I don’t know. This is my space, I kind of want to be able to express myself a bit more.

As for other highlights… There are a few interesting tidbits, I guess. I’ve decided to establish Bob! The Evil Ninja as as presence on the internet. Kind of stupid, I know, but I’m very proud of my little character, and I want to share him with the world. You can check out his Facebook page here, and his Gaia here. I’m not entirely sure what I’ll get out of this, but it’s kind of fun, it makes me happy.

And right now, happy is a state I practically live in. I’ve definitely had more energy, I want to go out and do things and run around like an idiot. I’ve been breaking out into dance more often then usual. There have been days, like yesterday, where I had tests up the wahzoo and should have been really worried, and I just didn’t care at all. Part of me kind of hates it, actually, because I’m happy for a STUPID REASON, but… I guess it’s all good.

Finally, last night I went to the musical, Crazy for You. And if any of the cast stumbles upon this, which, unfortunately, isn’t too unlikely, I guess people actually do read these things, (Kind of awkward.) you guys were FANTASTIC!! (Though, there was a weird purple halo around the exit signs that kind of bothered me… Not entirely sure what that was.)

And, as an exit, of course, you must now listen to some music. I’ve been listening to this like crazy lately, mostly because it reminds me of somebody. Which sounds horrible. But it’s not a dirty memory, I swear! It’s just… Weird.(:

Welcome to the Renaissance

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 01:14:00 -0400

The time that passed since the last post has been… extremely uneventful. I mean, sure there’s been friend drama and confusion and everything that accompanies regular life, but honestly nothing too special has happened. School has been typical, life has been average… It’s just what’s to be expected. Yet, in all this averageness, I discovered a hidden jewel, a little secret pocket of knowledge that makes me ecstatic. I know, this little tidbit is killing you, so I won’t hold it back any longer. I discovered that the Jonas Brothers suck.

Mmhmm. You heard right. They suck. Now, I know you’re confused. Because I love the Jonas Brothers, I absolutely adore them. So why do they suck? Because their new music is really no comparison for their old stuff, not at all. Lately, I’ve become obsessed with learning more about them, and the more I uncover, the more I’m convinced that what everybody sees of them nowadays is just a media produced shell that hides everything that they really are. Or were. I’ve been listening to It’s About Time like crazy, as well as Nick’s solo album, and I just love all of their old music. I’ve actually obtained a copy of It’s About Time, and I’ve been listening to it obsessively. I’ve been watching all of their old videos, all of these ancient interviews and things, and I’ve just fallen in love with them all over again. Their old stuff seemed to have so much more meaning behind it, and they definitely sounded better on the old stuff than they do on the new stuff. I mean, don’t get me wrong, but it’s almost like two different bands. I listened to It’s About Time in it’s entirety, then listened to Lines, Vines, and Trying Times, and it was like I wasn’t even listening to the same people. They’ve changed so ridiculously, it’s absolutely insane.

I’ve dubbed this discovery and absolute adoration of their older works my own personal “Jonas Renaissance“. It’s actually quite a bit like the actual Renaissance… The rediscovery of older works, the love and study of them, the comparing them to present everyday life… Quite similar. I liked Jonas Brothers more than A Little Bit Longer, and I like A Little Bit Longer more than Lines, Vines, and Trying times, and now I definitely like It’s About Time more than prettymuch any of them. It’s like they’re slowly degrading… I’m actually kind of sad about it. But don’t get me wrong; I love them to death. I love Lines, Vines, and Trying Times, I love Jonas, and I love them. And they don’t suck as in “they’re absolutely horrible” they just suck as in “they suck compared to what they were”. I know, it’s complicated… Just my random brain ramblings.

I guess it’s something you actually have to listen to. Here are the first tracks from their 1^st album and their most current album, LVATT:

You're Such a Trouble Maker

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 09:24:00 -0400

Ugh, where to even begin? I know, I haven’t updated in about a billion years… With friends and school and everything else that’s been going on, it’s taken a stay-at-home-due-to-injury day to actually get anything done! Buttt… Here it is, the new Halloween theme! Like always, it definitely works best in Firefox, but if you have to view in in IE, I guess you can… If you want it to look bad… XD

Gah, so much has happened since I last updated, I don’t even think I could cover it all… Here’s a summary of what’s happened. School: Tests, studying, freaking out over things I don’t need to. Not doing homework just to do it in another class. Nothing new. Homecoming: Eh, definitely not the best night of my life. Actually, it kind of sucked. I got all dressed up (which in itself was stressful) just to go to school and get sore feet (no shoes allowed) and be annoyed almost to the point of tears. I mean, seriously, just because you don’t have a date doesn’t mean you can’t dance or something, but nooo… It was bad. Boys: … Giggle.

This past weekend was interesting, however. First off, we had Liz’s 15^th Birthday, so she, Cen, and I got together at her place and hung out for the day. We watched movies, ate pizza, shot the BB Gun, etc. Rent, I’ve learned, is amazing. Repo, however, is a bit bizarre. Sunday I didn’t do anything but freak out over the essay due for AP, (oh, and watched JONAS, it was hilarious!!) but Monday was… definitely interesting. So, I got up earlyish and we went to the Portland Mall (well, first we went to the grocery store… There was a pretty cute bag boy.) Seriously, we weren’t at the mall for more than two minutes and I had already ripped my foot open. I mean seriously, I ripped my foot open. I was being stupid on the escalator, I took a step down on the up escalator, and those teethlike things caught my foot (because I was wearing flip flops). I thought I was fine ’till I looked down and saw all the blood… It was (and is) pretty bad. Buttt… on the upnote, I got to make my first Build-A-Bear! He’s actually pretty adorable… His name is Joseph Adam(: [yes, with the smiley face], named after Joe, and he even sings “Burnin’ Up”, “When You Look Me In The Eyes”, and “SOS”. In other words, he’s the coolest bear ever. EVER.

In other news, the 16^th is actually gonna be a rather important day for me. I mean, it’s not like anything is going to happen, but three years ago (as of the 16^th) I met the most influential person in my life for the second first time. … Confused? Good.(: Oh, and I’ve been listening to Selena Gomez’s album alot lately… She wasn’t that good live, but I actually really like some of her songs. Especially this one… It reminds me of somebody.(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS!!(:

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 20:19:00 -0400

I’ve already said I don’t believe in those long, sappy messages to the boys that always end in “You’re such an inspiration, I love you, we’re like, kindred spirits, I love you, marry me, I love you, let me have your babies/perform sexual acts on you.” Not that there’s really anything wrong with that, I know of plenty of people actually feel that way, and those messages are really meaningful, but I think if I were famous, I’d be creeped out by it. (Please don’t be offended if you’re one of those people who write messages like that. Some of them are really really sweet, but some of them are just a little bit over the top.) So, I’m not going to write out one of those long messages of everlasting love for Nick Jonas. I mean, come on, you’ve probably all heard it from me anyways, so what would be the point? I’m just going to get to the point.

On September 16^th, 1992, the sexiest person in the world was born. He was named Nicholas Jerry Jonas. He’s celebrating his 17^th birthday, and I hope he parties that ghetto booty off. (Don’t believe me on the “ghetto booty thing”? You should see this [overly Photoshopped] picture: Ghetto Booty!) So, without further ado:

IN OTHER NEWS, I decided to celebrate Nick’s birthday by… WORKING! Yes, working. I’ve made and finished a DIV featuring the birthday boy that you can see here, as well as a new premade sign based on my current default, here. Also, I’ve got a few web templates that aren’t yet coded, but will be soon (within a week, I hope), as well as some edited photos (not of the boys, just photos) that I intend to post sometime soon.(:

School has been pretty fantastic, too. I mean, there has been like, one minor brain torture thingy, but that was outside of school, but other than that I’ve been adjusting pretty nicely to my hectic schedule. The homework isn’t really as bad as I though it’d be, and so far things are going great. Hopefully it stays that way, right?(:

Loopdy-Loop

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 21:38:00 -0400

Wow. Just wow. I never imagined that I’d have so much due after the third day of school. It’s actually kind of ridiculous, but I guess that’s what I get for being smart, isn’t it? My schedule is pretty crazy, I’m constantly going everywhere, it really seems like I’ve got so much to do! Hopefully I’ll be able to fall into a groove and stay there, managing work and the site and everything else I do at the same time… If not, who knows? This year, Black days are definitely better than orange days… Here’s my schedule (orange days and black days, respectively):

Block 1: French, Chorus/Chem
Block 2: Chem, Java
Block 3: AP Euro History, Algebra 2
Block 4: English, Career Prep

So far, I’ve had the AP summer assignment, 4 documents and an essay (also for AP), two pages of Algebra, reading in English and Chem, and questions in Chem. On top of all the “I need this for class! I need to cover my books! I need this, I need that!” Stupid school. Although, Friday there was a dance, and that went pretty fantastically.

In other news, I am completely and totally in love. And not with anybody from school! Actually, I don’t know anything about this dude, but I know I don’t go to school with him… He’s a rapper! And he adds awesome rap things to Jonas Brothers songs! Does it get more epic than that?!? I know, it sounds nerdy, but I’ve absolutely fallen in love with his little additions… To the point where I’ve actually fastfowarded through the song just to hear him. It’s like, “Pssh, Nick Jonas? Who needs to listen to him, really?!? I’ve got this awesome dude who is… awesome.” XD Listen. Fall in love.

Happy Birthday, Danger!

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Thu, 13 Aug 2009 19:12:00 -0400

If you have eyes, you can clearly see that Joe Jonas is on this layout. If you’re blind, or have no eyes, you can’t even read this, so it’s pretty pointless to even try. If you’re wondering why he’s on this layout, then you obviously don’t know that August 15^th is JOE’S 20TH BIRTHDAY!! And yes, I’m celebrating for him. (One more year, and he’ll be able to go get trashed! Yay Joe!) I’m not going to give one of those paragraphs about how supercalifragilisticexpialadocious he is, one of those “you’re such an inspiration, I love you” things, because I honestly find that creepy, but I’ll say this (though he’ll never read it): I hope he parties his anus off, and has a blast, he hasn’t seemed as happy as and spaztic as usual, and he deserves it.(:

I’m not entirely sure why, but I’ve prettymuch fallen in love with this layout. It’s a mess, it’s all splatterly and random colored, it’s so far away from my ordinary layouts; very little actual photo editing, alot of brushes and randomness… It’s so wrong, this is not how my stuff is supposed to look, but it’s just so absolutely right, I love it!! And it doesn’t hurt that Joe looks pretty adorable in the photos… (Please excuse me while I go bipolar on this layout.) I had another idea for the layout, but I just wansn’t feeling it… It wasn’t right. Speaking of updates, I’ve decided that I really need to get working on the content of the site, not necessarily the look… I’ve really been slacking, been preoccupied, but I need to stop. Granted, no internet didn’t help, but I still should be working more than I am… (:

UPDATE: NICK HATERS vs. PEOPLE WHO ADORE HIM … I think this is a little bit ridiculous. Both sides of the thing are ridiculous. I mean, I LOVE NICK. I think he’s adorable and talented and he’s probably the best thing since… Air. Despite the fact that I’ve never met him, I would marry him right now if given the opportunity. But that’s my personal opinion. I know for a fact that tons of people think the boys are gay, untalented, wastes of flesh and guts and stuff. That shouldn’t surprise anyone. No, I don’t agree with the fact that people wish Nick would get hurt or die, and I think the people who do it suck giant penises, but it’s not my perogative to say they’ll rot in hell for it, or attack and harass them back. Fighting fire with fire doesn’t solve anything. Honestly, I think we should just post all this stuff all over the internet about how much we love Nick, not mentioning the hate, just saying how fantastic he is, until they all get sick of it and give up. Pretend we don’t notice it, and it’ll stop. (At least, it works with my sister when she decides she needs to dance… XD)

Chase The Stars

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 22:34:02 -0400

Long time no update? Believe me, I know. It honestly seems so bizarre to have internet back at the house, it’s almost foreign. It seems like such a luxury… I FREAKING HOPE I NEVER HAVE TO GO THAT LONG WITHOUT INTERNET AGAIN!!! I nearly drove me insane, not being able to update Facebook and Twitter, not being able to work on the site, ugh, I was like brain torture to the 100 millionth level.

In other news, I was extremely disappointed with the HBP. Honestly, I cried at the end, not only for Dumbledore (okay, and Snape… He’s so misunderstood!) but for the fact that the movie MURDERED the book. There were pointless scenes, such as the scene where they blew up The Burrow, that had no effect on the plot at all, and the whole thing was overly sexualized… It honestly seemed like Harry and Ginny were just going to grab each other and start taking off eachother’s clothes at any moment. The Inferi were nowhere near as good as I expected them to be, they kind of looked like Gollum, and they hid the major plotline with all the mumbo-jumbo of… I don’t know what. But I came home sorely disappointed… I should have saved up the money and decided to see the Jonas Brothers in Boston.

As for the new layout… I absolutely adore it. Really, I love it! At first I was a little hesitant to vary from my usual style so much, but I really just fell in love with Manny from SimpeSong’s style, and I wanted to try my hand at it. It’s so neat, so put together, I really adore it! My coding isn’t as precise as his is, mostly because my brain couldn’t wrap itself around his coding (mine is much more complicated and takes much longer to get to the point…). It’s something new, anyways. I also attempted to figure out Wordpress, but honestly, that program is the biggest, most confusing waste of time I’ve ever tackled. I know hundreds of thousands of people use it, and have fantastic blogs, but I’m content with Fanupdate, and it’s not-700-files-of-confusingness.

As a final note, I don’t think I’ve ever felt more fantastic in my whole entire life. This summer has been full of craziness, social drama, weird get togethers with weird people, shorts, and just… amazingness. I’ve been through… hell and back these past few months, it’s kind of nice to be able to chill. No, I didn’t get the new phone I wanted, but who cares in the long run? No stupid boys to deal with, just chill time and… I don’t know. But it’s pretty spantastic.

The Future's Out of Focus

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Tue, 14 Jul 2009 14:59:00 -0400

It’s been over a month since I’ve blogged… Holy shiznits. So much has happened, it’s insane. I mean, I’ve been caught up in so much, the move, the friend drama, the day to day crap I have to put up with, I really don’t know where to even begin! Ugh.

I guess I should start with the release of LVATT. I seriously hope I’m not the only one who is completely in love with this album. I mean, at first, I was a but put off by it, I was like “Eww boys… What have you concocted here?” But after listening to the entire thing a couple times through, I just absolutely fell in love with it! I’ve listened to it over and over and over since it came out, in fact it’s pretty much all I’ve listened to, and I’ve come up with three favourites: Fly With Me, Much Better, and Don’t Speak. (What Did I Do To Your Heart? is up there too… My fourth favourite, probably.) In any case, I adore nearly every song on the album. Except one: Don’t Charge Me For the Crime. I’m sorry, I hate to say it, but that is probably the worst song I’ve ever heard. It’s kind of like… ear vomit. I hate saying that, because it’s the boys, but I think someone was seriously a little… screwed up when they decided to put that on there… Gross! Don’t Speak especially got me, because of Nick’s little… I don’t know what you’d call it.

There’s a lot that you don’t notice
When you read between the lines
The future’s out of focus
When you’re blinded by the light
It’s a hope for all the hopeless
In the worst of trying times
I resort to being speechless
‘Cause I don’t want to lie

Next, because it’s so fantastic, THE SITE IS NOW OFFICIALLY TWO YEARS OLD! Well… Okay, “www.chocolatemilkk.net” is really only one year old, but Chocolate Milk! is now two years old… It’s kinda funny thinking that I started this thing two years ago. It’s even funnier to think that it’s all because of Wes… God, I hate that kid; he’s fantastic! Or at least, he still looks fantastic. But that’s off topic, very very off topic. I started this because I was depressed and needed to get my mind off him, and look what it’s turned into? It’s kind of crazy, in a way.

Since I have no internet at home, I’ve been spending an uncanny amount of time being… (le gasp) social. From going on crazy trips to Bar Harbor and Old Orchard to painting Liz’s bedroom to dancing in the rain, I’ve been doing all sorts of crazy things with Liz and Cen. But we’ve also had our fair share of drama, unfortunately. Friends fighting, a lot of anger spread… It’s been not-so-fantastic. But, I suppose, that’s just the way life goes, isn’t it? People change, things change… As my favourite people say, oh so wisely:

People change and promises are broken
Clouds will move and skies will be wide open

Finally, I absolutely can’t wait until tomorrow. Aside from being Cen’s birthday (HAPPY BIRTHDAY CEN!! <3), HARRY POTTER COMES OUT! Honestly, do you have any clue how long I’ve waited for this? October ‘07. Yes, October ‘07. That’s when they started filming it. Do you have any clue how upset I was when the pushed it back last year? I nearly cried… Then stupid Twilight took it’s spot. (Which, I am unproud to say, I have finally seen. It was horrible.) We’re all going to see it for Cen’s birthday, then we’re going back to her place, it’ll be fantastic. Time to bust out my stuff (Harry Potter stuff, of course!) I’ve got the T-Shirt, the sweatshirt, the scarf, the gloves… Heck, I might even put on an eyeliner scar. (Okay, I would’t go that far… Or would I?)

I take leave of you now, for I must now go and reply to the many comments I’ve received over my long, unintended hiatus… Grr, stupid no internet.):

We Like To Party.

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Mon, 01 Jun 2009 21:17:14 -0400

I know, you’re wondering, who are those dorks in the photo? Well, from right to left, that’s Liz, Heather, and myself being… dorks. Also, I’m very proud to say that Friday I went on my first real rollercoaster. And… it was the best thing ever. It was the epitome of epicness. It was… absolutely freaking fantastic. As was the rest of the trip.

If you’re totally lost, let me explain. Friday the band and chorus went to Massachusetts for some music festival, and afterwards, we went to Six Flags. AND IT WAS FREAKING AWESOME! I’ve never really been to a park like that, and I’ve definitely never ridden an actual rollercoaster. I mean, I’ve been to Sea World like, four times, but I’ve never ridden the Kracken, and the Journey to Atlantis isn’t really a coaster. So I was kind of terrified to get on them, but they’re amazing. But the swings, the swings were pure evil. I mean, honestly, I ride a bunch of coasters and am fine, but when I get on the swings, I get sick. That was fantastic. Oh, and I didn’t like the one where you were suspended… That wasn’t so fantastic. (See picture.) But for the most part, it was amazing. The bus ride wasn’t really that bad either. Listened to music, watched stupid movies, took stupid pictures, ate Steve chips… Kinda pretty awesome.

Now, listen to the Six Flags song.(:

Good Girls Go Bad

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Sun, 24 May 2009 17:10:43 -0400

The time since the last blog has been… crazy, to say the least. I’ve been beaten up by 10 year olds, discovered the best tasting things since… ever, been thrown up and let down by the same person (again), and watched Ghost Hunters like it’s some sort of drug. But on the upside, I’ve managed to chill out… Honestly, I couldn’t care less about anything, everything is chill.

I’ve decided I need to work more on what goes on the site and less on what it looks like, because I’ve come to realize that as far as content goes, my stuff is kind of lousy. I see all these sites with the huge fancy layouts and the thousands of layouts, and I’m just… envious. But then again, I don’t really like the really big sites that have so much stuff that everything has lost a personal touch, you know? I don’t want it to get so big that it’s just a lousy layout with some random brushes and tons of ads and such… It’s not a business. I just think I need something more.

This week looks amazing. It’s a three-day week, then SIX FLAGS with the chorus/band. Well, we have a festival first, but afterwards we go to Six Flags, and we won’t be back until like, 1 AM. It’s pretty rad. That and Steve’s on Wednesday, which is always something to look foward to.

Speaking of Steve… Liz, Monica and I say up way too late and are waaaayyy too bored.(:

Disturbation.(:

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Tue, 12 May 2009 21:02:54 -0400

You know how sometimes, you learn or see things you really don’t want to, and they end up creeping you out? Well, yesterday, I had that happen to me… TWICE. But the weird thing is, after I sat down and thought about both of them, they didn’t disturb me anymore. One I just dismissed, because it doesn’t matter, and the other… well, that kind of stuff just happens, there really isn’t anything anyone can do about it.

The first thing that I learned that disturbed me is that my sister and I have a strange, kind of unexplainable obsession with a guy that is older than our Mum. Because Steve is exactly one month older than our Mum… Granted, that makes him only 33, but still, I must be really bad with age, I thought he was like, 28ish. At first I was like “Steve, no! How could you be oldddddd?!?!????”, but then I thought over it and… He really isn’t “old”, and my sister and I still say something about Steve every other sentence, so it’s alright. (It’s bizarre, I have no clue why we’re so obsessed with him. I mean, we even re-named our hamsters “Steve and Tango”… Mine’s Steve… We’re freaks.)

The second thing… I don’t think I’m going to talk about it for two reasons: 1) I’m not entirely sure if it really was what I thought it was, or if it was some bizarre thing that had perfectly explainable reasons; and 2) I know if it was me, I wouldn’t want someone blogging about it. So, I’m just going to leave this as it is.

In other news, I feel… pretty fantastic, all things considered. Lately I’ve really felt like everything was going to fall apart, and I was going to end up picking up my pieces in a new place again, which wasn’t something I wanted to be doing. It isn’t something I think I’d be able to do again, honestly. But I think we’ve found a solution to most of our issues, and we’ve finally got some money on us, so who knows, maybe everything will work out for the better. (It doesn’t hurt to be optimistic…)

Finally, I’m probably going to be in a foul mood tomorrow. They want us to dissect a frog, which I know for a fact I can’t do. I tried in 7^th grade, and I started bawling. I have a very strong opposition to dissecting frogs. I mean, they were born and raised on farms for the sole purpose of DISSECTING THEM FOR SCIENCE!! I’m okay with killing something, like a cow, for human consumption, but killing something (especially as adorable as a frog) for the sake of science… You don’t see us raising humans so we can kill them for science, do you? So why frogs?
… I can’t do it, I know I can’t, and when she tries to force me, I’m probably going to cry my eyes out.

Depression...

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Thu, 07 May 2009 20:52:00 -0400

… The Jonas Brothers are evil.

Pure, addictive, amazingly attractive evil. They actually made me cry. I mean, isn’t it enough that they’ve scheduled their closest concert to me on the same day as the Half-Blood Prince? Then, of course, they have another one the next day on the day of my cousin’s wedding. They have an album coming out that I have absolutely no money to buy. And, to top it all off, Kevin confused me.

I was just watching their live chat on Facebook, and they were taking calls. So, I listened for the number, and called. Unfortunately, Kevin said “818, 748, wait… three 8’s and one seven”. I mistook that for “818.748.8817″, when the number was actually “818.748.8887″. So, for the better part of the chat, the better part of the hour, I was sitting there dialing the WRONG FREAKING NUMBER. I finally got through and I got an answering machine for Pedro’s Plumbing, or something like that. At first I thought Joe was being stupid, but then I realized that it really was Pedro, or whoever it was.

… I tried on the real number, but by the time I finally got any rings, the chat was over. They had left.

… I’m depressed.

There's Plenty of Fish...

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 17:54:56 -0400

Actually, if I were to say that, it’d be a completel and total lie. In fact, there aren’t plenty fish in the sea. There’s only one. At least, as far as I’m concerned there’s only one. But this isn’t your typical, average tiny fish. This fish is huge, I mean HUGE, like so big that there is only room for one fish in the sea. But, using my magical powers and a good toaster, I was able to ignore the fish for a very long time. Yesterday, however, all my attempts to get rid of the fish in the sea were squashed like… a spider if I happen to see it running around (I hate spiders). It was just a random thing, I was just on MySpace, and I was just curious. So, I typed in the name and BAM!, my brain was viciously attacked by the fish. The evil, evil fish. But the fish didn’t stop at my brain, no, it was too evil. It attacked my heart, it probably sucked out my blood with it’s evil vampire fangs of death. Because, as I said to Liz the other night, it hates me with all it’s guts and stuff.

If you haven’t figured it out yet, the fish is a guy. And the toaster is a guy too, well, actually the toaster isn’t a guy. The toast IN the toaster is a guy, but the toaster is just… big and scary. But this isn’t about toast, this is about fish, because the fish is important. He doesn’t really go by many names in my book, usually either “Fishie” or “Fishiebee”, and to the average person he’s not really all that spectacular. But nobody every said I was average. I was just sitting here yesterday, lonely, and I was on the site’s MySpace. I have like, thousands of friends on there, so I don’t normally pay attention to Status updates, but there was this one from this guy that, unfortunately, had Fishie’s real first name. So, I was like “Ha ha, let’s see if he has a MySpace.” (I was probably the reason he deleted his old one.) So I type his name in, and (dun dun dun) I see a small picture that is kind of hard to see, but it might be him. Now, a smart person would’ve left it alone and gone back to photoshopping her Nicholas, but no, Kyrie is an idiot when it comes to guys. Especially this one… He made me cut myself with safety scizzors in 7^th grade. So, being the moron I am, I clicked on the photo and found myself staring at… pure evil.

Even as I’m sitting here, I know it’s not right to to try and talk to him, I really shouldn’t have anything to do with him, especially since he hates me, but I can’t help it… He tore me into little, teeny tiny pieces and then ran over me with an 18-Wheeler over and over again until I was pretty much ground up into mush, then lit me on fire and watched me burn. He broke me, completely and totally, but I couldn’t care less. Honestly, when I saw it was him, I sat here and cried. Not because I was sad or mad at him, but because it was him, it was really Fishie. And sitting here, looking at the picture, reading what he put there (He sits around and plays on Computers all day… Who knew? I mean, last time I saw him near a computer he could only type with two fingers!) just brought back so much. He was the only person I’ve ever wanted… the way I wanted him, he was the only person I’ve ever felt anything like this for. I mean, yeah, sure I blog about guys all the time, but what I’ve felt for any guy I’ve met since him is nothing compared to how I felt about him. (Here comes the cheesy movie script part.) Thinking about all of it (which I did for hours last night; I didn’t get to sleep ’til 3), he’s the only guy I’ve ever been able to say I’ve loved.

And he hates me with all his guts and stuff.

IN OTHER NEWS: New layout, website template, and a bunch of new stuff courtesy of my AMAZING friend Chad who, for various reasons, has decided to quit. ):

I'm Not A Princess...

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 15:07:00 -0400

Long time no… anything, to be honest. I haven’t been up to much since the last blog. Healing, obsessing over boys, chilling with friends, being mean… You know, the usual. Well, not exactly the usual, because I’ve taken to recording Ghost Hunters, so I have like, 11 episodes on my DVR, and I’ve been watching them alot lately. I love Steve, he’s by far one of my most favourite people ever. I don’t know why, but I was watching a really old episode one day and Steve said something like “don’t be hatin’” and it was like BAM! flashback. And now I love Steve. Weird, huh? But then again, nobody ever said I was normal.

I’ve been having some serious issues lately. I’ve really been in a sort of… funk, and it hasn’t been fun. I haven’t been focused in school, I was late a few times, I’ve just been feeling generally cruddy. I think it’s been the excess stress, the parents are worrying, and that stuff just bleeds down. First it was the whole “not having a car” issue, then it was the “Dad has no job” issue, and now it’s the “Dad has no job and our car is broken” issue. It’s really fantastic. And I’m an emotional mess most of the time anyways, and I have been for a while with the whole “I hope he dies, I adore him” thing. But lately it’s been even worse, I’m so glad it’s Spring Break… I need some chill time.

In other news, I’ve discovered Twitter. Or rather, I’ve just set it up for my phone, I didn’t just discover it… But it still fascinates me. I mean, did you know Nick Jonas says “epic”? I say epic all the time! I was blown away by that. But maybe I’m just easily amused. I know I’m easily excited! See that picture (above, to the left)? I was bored and just had to use it. It’s Daniel! Well… Daniel as Harry. I just had to use that picture once I found it, it’s amazing. I love the series anyways, but I haven’t had anything Daniel on the site since… September… I’m really excited for the sixth movie. The only downside I can see to it is that it’s on July 17^th, which is the same day the Jonases come to Boston. But I’ve already decided that if it comes down to one or the other, I’m going to see the movie. I don’t want to miss the boys, but Harry was around first.

Oh Penis!

kyrie@chocolatemilkk.net (Chocolate Milk!) — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 17:09:38 -0400

Well, it’s been quite a week. I haven’t updated in ages, mostly because I haven’t been on for longer than a few minutes in ages. Last weekend I didn’t get on because Liz was over, and this week has been… hectic. I went to school Monday, felt horrible, stayed home Tuesday, got picked up early Wednesday to go to… somewhere and look at a car. Oh, we also traveled somewhere Monday to look at a car… We’ve kind of been in a frantic panic for the past week trying to find a car, because when the ice melted ours was killed by a falling ice chunk of doom, and we just got the insurance money last week. And by the time we got it, our rental time was almost up, and so I’ve been up and down the state several times in the past week looking at all sorts of cars… Not really fun.

Yesterday was horrible, because I fell in gym and, of course, hurt my other ankle. I limped on it all day, and had to walk home on it. I didn’t even get to the house, I was like, right in the driveway when my people hijacked me and we went to… somewhere and looked at more cars. By the time I got home my leg had cramped up really badly. I had to sit at the table with my leg prettymuch immobilized, cramming for Biology, when my Mom got a call from this lady that wanted to sell us her van. Sooo… I felt horrible and couldn’t focus on bio anways, so I went with them (yay, another trip) to see it and… We bought it. I think. (I haven’t managed to limp out to the window to see which car is sitting in our driveway.) But anyways, when I finally got to bed it was nearly midnight and I felt dead. And my ankle? Well… my ankle is fine. But my foot is swollen and has this… “hard lump of death”, and my leg never uncramped from the car ride, it hurts worse than the other one did. Today was just crappy, with the bio test and the drama and the gimping… TGIF.

In other news, everyone is dying. Seriously, EVERYBODY. My sister’s bestfriend, Andrea (I love Andrea, I would really love to trade her for Monica, but I don’t know how Andrea’s parents would feel about that), was apparently hospitalized because of a respitory infection, and hasn’t been to school all week. And in chrous yesterday, we had no tenors because I’m pretty sure both Brian and Shane died. Dead, caput. They’re goneeee. Granted, they could show up to school Monday perfectly fine, but then again, we could find out Monday that they died, too…

Finally, the 8^th was a very special day for me. It was the anniversary of the day that I realized that I was obsessed with the Jonas Brothers. I know, that sounds confusing, but I didn’t realize I was obsessed until I was writing in my Book of Random Thoughts, which is really more like a diary, and I was like “Wow… I’m obsessed with these kids.” So… I had to make it a special day… Just thought I’d put that out there.

Coming Soon: UPDATES! Possibly.